Tonight (Technically yesterday night since we have graced midnight) I was faced with a horrid competitive feeling. Though I normally choose not to I acted on it. What was going on in my head at the time is unknown. It is against morals that I have set up for myself. It was not set up by parents or family, all by me. Which makes it more of a disappointment that I did not keep up with that. Had I done the same thing for a different reason it would be fine but I did not. I know it was wrong and I feel a bit hypocritical for it but I have realized my wrong. Obsessing over something so little bothers me but that is generally just how I am.
Until next time,
↓↑AmandaPaige.
P.S. I would like to take the time to congratulate my brother on his achievement.
January 30, 2008 at 3:48 pm
We all obsess over silly matters and it is all right. What you felt (guilt) is just part of being human. A teacher once told me that when you act like a hypocrite is because you are not thinking of yourself and only want what is best for the other person. This may not be true all the time but I found that around 40%-45% of my life is being a hypocrite, especially when it comes down to my sister. The good thing is that you have recognized this and can easily move on and use this as something you have learned and can avoid again in the future.
xoxo
josie
p.s. tell bluegrass congrats on my behalf